She Who Has Believed
Luke 1:45
No Matter Where
I remind myself that God holds my past, present, and future, and that He has plans to prosper me (Jeremiah 29:11). I will thrive no matter where I am in my cancer survivorship journey because I have God with me.
August 03, 20235 min readHighs and Lows
As 2022 unfolded, I held on to a new word for the year—stewardship. I hoped to steward the time, talent, treasure, and truth that God has entrusted in me—He extended my time on earth, allowed me to return to graduate school, placed wonderful people in my life, and strengthened my relationship with Jesus.
March 04, 20235 min readGod's But
I knew that life—more so, life with cancer—is a marathon, not a sprint. I knew that recovery is not linear. I knew that I have to keep pressing on. I knew that I have to be patient. I knew. But I still struggled.
October 11, 20212 min readI Shall Not Want
In the last 3 years, I was laser focused with cancer treatments. I only wanted to be cancer-free. And now that I am, I began noticing the milestones—education, career, and relationship milestones—of my peers. I began to envy. I began wanting for more.
May 21, 20213 min readHealing and Miracles
Entering 2021, I hope for more healing and miracles. I hope to embody a character and a perspective that are pleasing to God. And I hope that whatever lies ahead, I will be able to always respond in faith.
January 06, 20216 min readDay 100
It is supernatural and timely that today, almost exactly a year after, I am celebrating a milestone—Day 100 post stem cell transplant. Oh, how faithful is our God! He is a way maker, a miracle worker, a promise keeper, a light in the darkness!
August 25, 20201 min readNever Forsaken
On May 16 and 17, I had my rebirthday. I was reborn with a new immune system. I was given another fighting chance in life... Looking back to my month-long hospitalization, from May 9 to June 10, I see that I was never forsaken. God was with me in that hospital room, and God continues to be with me.
July 31, 20206 min readDay 24
One Saturday, while my body felt almost exploding, my spirit just shattered. I broke down to God. Why do I have to endure this much? Where is peace? Where is joy? What glory is there after all these? Deep inside me, I knew the answers. But I was shutting out the truth and struggling to keep my head above water.
June 11, 20201 min readLive
The following morning, I woke up with a message from my oncologist that says, "Your PET looks good!" I hastily opened my hospital account and looked for the scan result. Hallelujah! It says no evidence of disease.
May 08, 20201 min read